This summer is going to be great. I am already so excited about the garden and eating such yummy veggies! I had a salad this last week that was made up entirely of things from our garden. I am only telling the truth when I say it was the best salad ever. I am also excited about learning to china paint from my Meme. It is difficult, but I think it’s going to be super cool once I get the hang of it. I am also praying about my desire to get a kayak. I’ve wanted one for a really long time, but I think I need to save more money before I really make that decision.
I also was convicted last Sunday about missions. The Lord used a sermon and a friend who just left on a mission trip to reveal this part of my heart that needs to be addressed. I suppose I can share part of it with you. I realized that I have not put my whole heart to the missions trips I’ve been on before. I have allowed the enemy to let me withhold part of the love of Jesus from the people I am ministering to. I was caught off guard in the middle of worship last weekend with this thought going through my head, “You never held one of the least of these.” I was shocked. I realized that in my quest to remain clean and germ-free on the missions trips I have taken (mostly subconsciously), I distanced myself from the very people I was there to serve. It made me sad to think about. The Lord asked me to put myself in their place and asked how much I would long to be hugged and loved on if I were them. I realized my selfishness. I realized that I had gone on missions trips and worked and yes, even come back changed. But, I mostly felt this longing to be changed. I felt a longing to give what I had been withholding. He also placed a particular place on my heart, but I don’t want to mention it here. I need to be praying about it since I don’t want it to be of my desires, but of His.
This summer I hope to spend some time cooking and baking with my friend Amy Hayward. She and Kenny just got married and I am so excited for them. I am also trying to think of ways to make a little extra cash (think kayak on this one). I am also going to be moving to College Station at some point so it won’t be long before I’ll need to be packing up again and moving out. Crazy. I’m not looking forward to math, but it has to be done and it’ll happen one way or another. Only God will be able to give me the brain cells to accomplish that! Anyway, the summer is pretty full. I may try to go see mom and dad. I miss them a lot. Maybe I’ll try to see Aims and Jer too. This may be a train summer. Whoop! Okie dokie, I need to go and get some reading done, but hopefully I’ll be posting here sometime in the near future.
Peace and Blessings, Ash